Day 64

Work: 240 min

Social: 120 min

Total: 360 min

Finished my final project for SLA. A few loose ends to tie up this weekend, but in a couple of days, I am on holiday for 6 weeks at home. More about that later!

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60%: Making choices or saying no to wine

I learned something this morning when I had to wake up to get to a 7:30 volunteer shift I had signed up for, after only 6 hours of sleep and a department party that included several glasses of wine.

I got to my shift (5 minutes late) but felt rushed, annoyed and exhausted. I got to come home and collect myself after that, and sleep a bit more but I realized it could all have been avoided. I was supposed to stay out only 1-2 hours last night. Instead, I spent about 4-5 hours drinking and eating at a fun party because I wanted to believe we can have it all.

Well we can’t have it all. At least, not all at once. There are times when some things that are important to you will take priority and that’s something to deal with. Because when you say yes to everything, give into the desire to be excessive, it hurts the people and projects you have given your word to.

I am so sick of being pressured to achieve some kind of work/life balance. it doesn’t happen. It doesn’t even make sense. Not all the areas of your life require equal attention at all times. Successful people are willing to be unbalanced when one area is in need of more work than others. I am starting to think that what causes people distress isn’t the so-called imbalance but the social pressure to maintain the illusion of balance.

And I should have said no to the wine. I can’t really do more than one glass without suffering the consequences, being a woman of Indian descent in he mid-twenties.

So say no to the wine, yes to imbalance, and don’t let anyone make you feel bad about it.

Day 62

Social: 270 min
Boo radley event (passing out cookies before a final) and party with colleagues

Work: 275 min
SLA activities project, meeting with advisor about progress towards degree and candidacy exams. Also attended a round table discussion about teaching literature in intermediate French courses.

Exercise: 33 min
Ran 2.5 miles at varying speeds and a bit more (.5 miles?) to cool down. It was a good run.

Total: 578 min

Day 61

Social: 120 min

Lunch with collaborators/friends on documentary project. We really had a good working relationship. Also Boo Radley meeting. Last one of the semester.

Work: 90 min

Final notes to accompany documentary sent. Work on classroom activities for SLA project.

Total: 210

Day 60

  • Work: 60 min

Write analysis and prepare presentation for final project

  • Social: 120 min

 Lunch with founder of Boo Radley + Dinner with friends.

Particularly enjoyed these two events. I found out that the founder and former president of Boo Radley, a person I find really inspiring, supported my candidacy during deliberations for exec board and thought that I would do a good job. Encouraging.

Total: 180 min

 

8 weeks

6 weeks in. Wow! Here are the minutes I have accumulated:

Minutes from Week 1: 1644.

Minutes from Week 2: 2007

Minutes from Week 3: 1790

Minutes from Week 4: 2220

Minutes from Week 5: 1825

Minutes from Week 6: 2022

Minutes from Week 7: 2700

Minutes from Week 8: 1830

Total so far: 16,048

The total minutes required at this point are 13,440, so I’ve gone over the minimum, which is good.

First 5k

I ran my first 5k today. Finished in 40 minutes. I know this isn’t a great time. I stopped and walked several times during the race. I breathed hard, sweat, and my legs ached. But I finished – I came to the finish line, running, and was definitely not the last person in.

I am proud of myself for doing it, even though it was kind of embarrassing at times and it’s definitely not something that comes naturally to me.

I also learned:

1) Running outside is way more difficult than running on a treadmill, and SO much harder than an elliptical. Screw what I look like, I am going outside more. There’s no way around it.

2) You need to train for a race. That’s how you build stamina, confidence and learn to pace yourself without the bounce from a machine. I will sign up for a 10k for the end of summer and actually train for it.

3) There’s only so far exercise will take you in terms of fitness/weight loss. I saw some of my race pictures and didn’t really like the way I looked in them. I definitely need to work on watching what I eat more, exercising consistently – a mix of running/cardio, weight lifting and stretching/Pilates. The cardio is important for me because I want to burn a lot of calories, the weight lifting to build muscle, the stretching to prevent injuries and help tone, and the diet obviously because there are only so many calories one can burn and some foods do no one any good.

Anyway, I am proud of myself for doing this. I ran with some friends who are all fitter than me, have either been weight lifting or running longer than I have, but who were all super supportive and not judgmental. It was a new way for me to socialize, and it was good.,

Day 58

  • Social: 60 min

Late night High Five Friday. Super fun!

  • Well-being: 120 min

$15 hair cut & massage. I love student salons: good for basic services and affordable.

  • Exercise: 60 min

Finally got some in after a lazy week.

Sad news: didn’t get the writing center consultant job. It was disappointing. That job meant the possibility of being the teaching supervisor in my department next year. It’s just not going to happen, not right now anyway. I really thought this would be my chance and I put so much effort into this, into working against everything stacked against me. I’m trying to stay positive and see this as part of the path to something better that is really meant for me. I’m going to go for a run just now because even though I’m trying to stay in a good frame of mind, I do feel a bit discouraged. I need to sweat and cry.

Nice things: Boo Radley members wrote compliments on each other’s backs this week. It was super sweet and I got a lot of compliments about my style. A student told me she thought I was ‘so pretty’ at the end of our last class. And I got compliments on my hair. All of these are little ego boosts, and who doesn’t need those sometimes? 🙂